Santa Claus

we went saturday. we've been going to this same santa for years. LOVE HIM! he always takes his time with the boys and before leaving says he loves them and gives them big ole hugs. zach was just in awe of him, i wish i had video of him telling santa what he wanted. and neal, even though he no longer believes, he went right along with it, either to satisfy me or b/c maybe, just maybe, a little part of him is not ready to fully give up the idea of santa claus.

42 lbs eluded...

only for 15 of them to find their way back. so i have joined bodyplex (anyone else go there???) i am really stoked, not just to be back at the gym again but to have some "me" time. so here's to getting back into shape and hopefully losing those 15, plus some of their friends. and here's to having time to myself 4-5 times a week, zach having some social time with other kids, and that lovely 3 hours a week on friday when i can leave the kids there and leave the facility for a little errand running sans kids!

Back to Reality Check

coming home from a weekend away is always a big reality check. i never took time to be young and free and just be me, i was in too much of a hurry to grow up. this weekend was awesome, they always are, nothing like just hangin' with the girls doing girl stuff, not having to be responsible for kids or the house or dinner or laundry or that 4th over grown kid of mine. we laid in the bed, with no one demanding we get up to get pop tarts for breakfast. we walked around the mall, with no one tapping thier fingers waiting impatiently for us to try on every silly thing we wanted. we swiped lip plumping lip gloss on and giggled about it stinging, without someone rolling their eyes. we ate dinner, without fifty trips to the potty or spilled soda. we stayed out late, without anyone calling a hundred times to find out when we'd be home. we had a few drinks (some of us), without thinking of the calories in each drink. we sang silly songs, without fear of anyone hearing. we said stupid stuff and made memories and inside jokes, which i'm sure will pop into mind here and there to make us smile and remember this weekend. it was heaven.
don't get me wrong, i have a good life. i am blessed. but some days, just some days, i wonder what it would be like to have lived that life. what it would be like to only be responsible for myself. but then, i think about hearing i'm pretty from my husband, and i'm the bestest mom ever from my kids.....and well, suddenly i don't mind being responsible any more.
so i'll have my weekends here and there to just be me, and come back home to be the mommie/wife/realtor life i did choose.....that is until the next trip when i get the chance to "bring sexy back" and laugh hysterically at hearing another girl say "slam it daddy" to me.
and to chelley, the sister i never had, i love you girl, you are a super friend. i'm so lucky to have you in my life! you put up with my crazyness and make me laugh. brooke, darling, you are awesome. i'm so glad you came. now if i ever do talk chris into moving to indy, i will have TWO great friends there, not just one. i hope this will be the first of many trips with us for you!