my shower is sunday. i'm really excited. i'm hoping this helps me get and feel a little more prepared for this guy. i am going to start working on packing my bag today and finally finished the boys "big brother" shirts. zach was born at 33w4d - so i'm praying that this one beats the odds and stays cooking until 37+ weeks, i'm 33w1d today. however, i'm truly ready to not be pregnant. i've been day dreaming about working out again and resuming great sex with that never more sexy husband of mine. speaking of him, the roles have really reversed in our house. he has become the "better" parent. he's so good with the boys and does stuff with them, i'm the one who yells and just can't wait for a chance to escape to my bedroom. it really bothers me, i even told myself this morning before coming out "i am going to be a good mom today". it's true, i have only yelled once, because neal hit zach who called him a "shithead". and i made their shirts, and put them on some tattoos, and let them empty the dishwasher (bwahaha they think it's a privledge). but other than that they've played outside and upstairs while i've started trying to accomplish things on my "to do" list - that i was writing at 4am the other night b/c i couldn't sleep. ahhh sleep, it's that thing that i vaguely remember and long for the day (months from now) when i may actually get a feeling of what it is. my teeth hurt from dental work i had done - which i'm going to try to find a new dentist to correct, but haven't b/c i'm lazy and unfocused. i pee every hour at night. i can't get comfortable on my sides and can't breathe on my back. i have crazy dreams that leave me exhausted and my mind rambling. and for some reason, if i lay on my left ear it starts to hurt, not inside but outside. ok, what else can i waste your time with???? oh i put my license on "inactive" status for now. the market is soooooooo bad, and the fees are so much, that i was paying out the wazoo to keep active and making NO MONEY. so we took our house off the market until after school starts back. we'll re-evaluate the market then and decide whether to relist and if i am going to re-activate my license or hold off until spring - when "they" are saying the market is due for an up-swing. i am still working (sometimes) 2 days a week in rome with the breast cancer program. you know i make more doing that than i did full time at my last job, truly sad huh? ok, i'm off to work on this list, that seems to grow 2 for every 1 thing i mark off. i leave you with a pic of the boys, tan and smug, in their "big brother" shirts.
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