almost 4 days old

well, we are sitting here awaiting our billi blanket. his count is 17 today, so we're just going to do some home photolight therapy to get it on down. we'll go tomorrow and get a heel prick to see if that's going to do the trick.

he's not nursing right now, using formula to get the poops going and get the jaundice processed out. saw a LC and my body is not really producing anything b/c he is so sleepy that my body thinks it doesn't need to make milk. so i rented a hospital grade pump and i'm pumping every 2-3 hours to build it up so we can get back on the bf wagon ASAP. right now i'm getting only drops, but this last time those drops actually made it into the bottle to accumulate one big drop. i'll see the LC again monday. our goals are 1 feed the baby by any means necessary 2 build my milk supply and then 3 get him nursing and tackle any hurdles that have been created by bottle feeding. i do have his wonderful ability to latch on my side though. so i'm still very positive about nursing this time.

he finally pooped a non-meconium poop at 4am - oh the things we get excited about. so that means we're on our way to processing out the jaundice, now with the lights, hopefully it won't take too long.

sleep - ahh sleep is not a complaint i have. b/c of his excess blood and jaundice we are having to wake him up. he goes sometimes 6 hours straight, we can't even wake him up enough to suck more than once or twice. he barely cries - unless it involves a cold wipie. i told chris that we are so going to pay for these easy first few days in a couple of weeks, but that'll be ok b/c that will mean his body is all balanced out and he's able to spend more time awake and alert and eat more. he ate the most at 4am, 1.5 oz. this is so weird for me b/c i'm used to babies who eat every 2 hours and i mean EAT! so this part is definately new.

as for me, i feel pretty good. i'm still crampy, and my bleeding isn't quite tapering off yet, it's not bad but not getting less, if that makes sense. my bp is a little up, but nothing alarming and i'm still a little swollen. but for the most part i feel ok, not too tired and so far only one breakdown. my back is sore from the epi, but i was expecting that.