huge sigh of relief

if you remember, i asked for prayers for my mom. some of you knew why, others didn't. my mother had her yearly mammagram this year. there was a suspicious mass. so she went for a diagnostic mammagram. still unable to determine if it was indeed breast cancer or not, they did a biopsy last week. before i tell you the results, let me just say that i have been in complete freak out mode. i mean i seemed to always gravitate toward thinking the worst. i even told myself that God must have put me staying home and working with the American Cancer Society and BCCP for exactly this purpose. i'm a big everything for a reason believer so i just knew this was preparation for me to deal with what was in store. yesterday i broke down twice during random conversations about cancer. this morning my stomach churned as i awaited my mom's phone call. i had breakfast with her and mikey this morning and couldn't stop watching her interact with mikey and soaking up the love that beamed from her eyes for her grandchild. at 9:24 am this morning my phone rang while i was at Car Audio getting my front windows tinted. i closed my eyes and said one last quick "please God" before i answered. well, when i heard my mom on the other end saying it was "all normal, no cancer, just fibercystic", i honestly could feel this huge pressure lift off my chest. i could breathe again. so thank you, every one of you who prayed, sent happy thoughts, mediatated, whatever you did for us, thanks!!!!